It Happens

Yeah, my feelings are hurt. I admit it.

And whose feelings wouldn’t be hurt? At least that’s logical reasoning for someone who just got jerked around. And I got jerked around, but I told everyone that I was fine; I didn’t care. I had so much on my plate that I couldn’t be bothered by feeling anything than slight irritation at the boy.

Uh huh…sure.

Here’s the truth: I liked him and I thought he liked me. I leave town to see this boy play football, I met his aunts, sister and mother and I had a great time. And I thought he did too. But then, he stopped returning my phone calls and we went from talking every night for hours to talking every three days for twenty minutes until someone else conveniently called to him not even returning my phone calls at all.

Are you kidding me? I’m pissed!

And I don’t know if he liked the chase and once he caught me, he lost interest. He sure didn’t seem like the type. Maybe his mother didn’t like me and she told him to be done with me. If that’s the case, he’s weak and I didn’t need him in my life anyway. I would like to know why I got set aside, but I won’t hold my breath. I am busy and I’ve got stuff to do. But it’s good that I got it off my chest. If I never hear from him or see him again, I’ll be fine.

And while I needed to move on, there is a point to this rant. There was still a silver lining to this cloud: I learned what it feels like to be treated like a lady. It seems like a small thing, but its not when you think about it. I had never been courted before this boy. I mean he would send me notes after we talked on the phone, talking about how he enjoyed our conversation. He would text message me randomly with notes saying he missed me. He told me that he thought about me during practice. What? I was bowled over with giddiness. And maybe it was game, but you know what? He just raised the bar for any other guy who comes into my life.

Don’t be sad it’s over, be glad it happened.

As hokey as that sounds, it’s the truth. If you learn something from each and every experience you have, good or bad, then it wasn’t a waste of time. Sometimes its just you learning how strong you can be. Maybe you know the signs of what to look for in a sociopath. Or God forbid, you learn a lot about restraining orders. You learned something and grew. Every interaction and experience has the opportunity to expand your horizon, so don’t hide from it.

Oh! And if something bothers you, be honest. You’ll let it go quicker.